Barefoot.: Nehemiah

Recently I have been fighting feelings of insignificance in the work I've been doing while I've been involved here in the PFK program at Capilla de Calvario, Villarreal. Someone mentioned to us girls one day when we asked them if they would miss us when we left, "Eh, not to make it personal, but probably not. I mean, there's going to be new interns who come in afterward, and when you all came it was just like another routine thing. People are always coming and going. It's just the program."

Little to say, I did take it personal.

It's not like the one person made me think that everyone thought the same as them, but it did add to the thoughts of the fact that soon after we leave some others will be replacing us. What we are doing here is what they will continue to do after we leave, and our personalities, our specific qualities will soon be replaced by theirs. It's a degrading thought to just be one on the employment line. Just another set of hands to get the job done.

Then today God sent His reasurrance to me through Don Victor when he shared from Nehemiah.

"I pray, O Lord God of heaven, O great and awesome God, You who keep Your covenant and mercy with those who love You and observe Your commandments..."(v. 5)

At the meeting before PFK starts on Monday afternoons Don Victor shares a mini message, and we pray for specific things in the Club- the kids, the program, the parents, the funds, the patience, the wisdom to teach and lead these children, etc. As Don Victor shared about Nehemiah, he hit the point that it doesn't matter what others outside of the work say against what we're doing-that what we're doing in these kid's lives is insignificant, or not worthwhile, but that if we're doing it all to the glory of God, we can be confident that he who began a good work in us will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. (from Philippians 1:6). This brought to my attention that what the person had said to me that had deterred me so was what the devil used to enrapture my feelings of inadequacy to try and tear me down so I didn't feel the need to continue helping in this program, and fighting the fight of preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life.

Gabriel

"For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:12

Some of the smiling faces that help me to remember the work I do for the Lord is not done in vain....